Why have I kept putting myself in harms way over and over again? To be in the type of relationship that I never wanted to have? And everytime that I went back, it was worse than the time before! I had to talk to God constantly, to keep my sanity. Now I pray that he leaves me alone – but is that asking too much of him? I think I know the answer to that. He is the mentally unstable one, although I should have my head examined for ever putting up with it again! You know that we think love can conquer all – not true at all.
At least I’m smiling and laughing again. I was so very sad most of the time. My brother-in-law, Glenn told me this morning that it was good to see me smiling and laughing again. He gave me a much needed hug and actually had tears in his eyes because he’s really a big softy inside that stern acting exterior. Of course then I also had tears in my eyes and he apologized for making me cry, but sometimes it’s a good thing.